What’s Next?

Yesterday I had to make an end to the best years of my life. Yesterday was the day I graduated.  It was emotional and stressful, but I got through it, and I did it!

I’ve been going to school for 12 years now.  I’ve been studying to get to the next level each year, knowing that the year after it, I’ll be doing the same thing.  This year it’s different. This year I’m a graduate.

I’ve been wondering for the past 5 months now, about what I’ll be doing with my life, and thinking about every possibility there is.  I don’t know what to do, or where to go. I don’t know when to apply, and when to take the exams I need to take.  How do you do it?  Where do you even start?

Being the first child, and the first grandchild, puts me under pressure most of the time. I feel like I have to be a role model, and every time I fail at something, I wonder what everyone will think, but I guess failing is a part of it all, and if a person never experiences it, then whatever success they have is nothing compared to success achieved after really hard work, and sometimes, even tears.

I’m the eldest, so I don’t have guidance most of the time.  I’m doing alright, but I know if I knew half the things I know right now, things would be easier for me.  So I’ll be sure my brothers and sister know it before it becomes an issue for them.

This is just one of the moments where you really know that life gets harder as you grow, and each day you get stronger through knowledge, and experience.  If I list what I’ve learned in only the past 3 years, I would need 24 hours to mention them all.

Life is pretty interesting right now, I’m really interested in the future and where I’ll end up. I’ll keep you updated.