When things get a little complicated.

Have you ever tripped over yourself, then looked back to see what was in your way? Metaphorically speaking, if that makes sense.  Well, I have.  It’s almost like we’re blind to certain things, or we just chose not to see them. People go out and live their daily lives not knowing what’s around the corner, but what if we should know? What if we could protect ourselves from it? Maybe not be as hurt or lost in the end..

It’s funny how we don’t care most of the time. We just wanna do things without a care in the world, without consequences. We think that we’re unbreakable, and that nothing can touch us as long as we’re strong enough. Trust me, you’re never strong enough.

It’s pretty hard, you know.. You’re not born into this world with a manual that tells you what you should or shouldn’t do. Maybe that’s for the best, but what about learning from other people’s mistakes? Does that make you smarter, or just scared to try it yourself?

It’s confusing. You don’t know what you’re supposed to do, or what your next step should be, but everyone thinks you should, and that it isn’t normal to not know & be lost sometimes. What if I don’t know what I want yet? Do I just go ahead and do whatever, hoping it’ll be the right choice for me? Or do I take my time, and wish for a miracle? A sign of some sort, to guide me to the “Light”.

I really have no idea. I’m no Ghandi or whatever, but I don’t think people should be pressured to do things they don’t wanna do.  I wanted to be so many things.. A doctor, a lawyer, a business woman, a reporter, and even a vet! Why aren’t any of these good enough?  Do I have to LOVE what I do? Or am I just being spoiled?   I don’t know.. But I know it’s hard to chose.  Hopefully, whatever I pick next, I’ll stick to. Cause this 5-second-change isn’t doing me much good. It’s just making me even more lost.