I realized a lot of stuff

I seem to be prone to leaning on people without thinking, so that’s probably something bad seeing as though I’m complaining about it. Who said you need someone to rely on? All you need is yourself, and something to keep you busy.

It’s nice having friends, don’t get me wrong. It’s also nice never having to doubt people, and seeing people without a fault is every peaceful person’s dream. I try to. I try seeing the good side, but somehow people never cease to amaze me. You look at yourself in the mirror, and you think “Am I the only person that I can trust?” “Are people really THAT selfish?”. Maybe it’s a good thing to be selfish sometimes. You have to want what’s good for you too, right?

I got that a bit late, but I understand it now. People will always look after themselves before anyone else, and that’s just normal.  Trusting yourself, and being independent is the only way you’ll never be disappointed, and if you are; it’s probably your fault. In your world, you’re the only person that can let yourself down.

Life keeps giving me lessons on trusting people, but I never seem to care much. One person, two people, three.. Maybe they’re just the wrong people? Maybe I need to start picking who I let into my life a bit more, cause it’s frustrating when you doubt yourself, especially when you think you’re right all the time.