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Happy Birthday, Grandma.
You’re bliss itself, you know that? I remember walking into your room in the afternoons to find you watching the news, and somehow even that was mesmerizing. I looked up to this genuine human being that had everything from class, sophistication, beauty, talent, love and much more. Remembering times when you taught me little things…
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Effortlessly Misunderstood
Did you understand what I said? How my ‘okay’ pleaded for a hug, and how my ‘never mind’ begged you to stay. Did you get what I said, today? ‘Good morning’ screamed ‘I miss you’, and ‘goodbye’ a thought so far away.
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Desk Job Thoughts
She sits at her desk, pen in hand Drawing the little sketches of flowers she sees in her thoughts She stares out the foggy window, imagining the snow-covered mountain she’d like to visit Phones ring as stories of a sacred love play on her mind Lost in daydreams, she finds herself..
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Reaching Professional Happiness
Today I attended a lecture by Mr. Faris Alshareef, and following are a few points to summarize what he explained: 1. Surround yourself with successful, positive people who will only bring you higher. 2. Dedication and consistency are the biggest keys to accomplish what you truly want. 3. Talk about your dreams to the…
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Transitions
In this new journey of self discovery that I’ve recently started, I’ve learned that transitioning from one version of yourself to another will make people around you feel uncomfortable. It’s not because you’re doing anything wrong, it’s just that they’ve gotten used to a certain idea of you and don’t want that to change. It’s…
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An Intimate Confession
I’ve always felt as though I was meant for something greater. I was told by people that I had a certain “je ne sais quoi”, but I never truly understood why. Lately, however, things have gotten clearer and have become more profound. Profound enough to notice. I see some things that I do and think…
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Five Years Gone
Hello, grandmother. I’ve missed you terribly. I wonder how you are all the time. Then, I wonder if you wonder the same about me, too. It’s been quiet for a while now. A bit too quiet, actually. I don’t feel your presence as much as I used to. I haven’t dreamt of you, been inspired…
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I am not meant for your idea of greatness.
Do you know what pressure feels like? Well, it feels good sometimes. Mostly, though, it’s just a nag. It’s a mountain of piled expectations. It’s a goal. It’s a long-term plan that has about 15% potential. It’s a vision of the future you see yourself living. That’s what pressure is. Sure, most of the time…
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May The Butterflies Rise Again
I remember the aches I felt in my stomach when I’d see you smile. The way the butterflies fluttered out of control and made me wince, because it was just too much thrill to contain in one abdomen. I remember when they’d start to rave when our eyes would lock, because they’d feel just as…
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About That Year
It was a cold December night in Riverside. The house smelled like damp wood and wet carpet, it had been raining for a week straight. The weather was gloomy. The city was gloomy. And I, especially, was gloomy. I was lying in bed that night, watching the Christmas lights that flickered through my dark curtains…
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Four.
Well, it’s been four years without you. Without your smile, your long black hair. Without your laugh that could light up a house. No, a life. My life. It’s been four years without your fine cuisine, wise words and house full of cats. It’s been four years without someone to turn to when my heart aches.…
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Bittersweet Understanding
There are things that come naturally to some, and to others it often feels like the battle of a lifetime. I sometimes wonder how it is that I understand and observe my surroundings, allowing them to sink into me. When it comes to myself, however, I am left baffled with confusion and uncertainty. I do…
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Winter’s Coming
Winter memories are the best memories I could ever want to have. Winter and I have a thing. A real thing, you know? Kind of like a comfort zone. It’s the time when I feel my happiest. A time when I feel free, boundless and able to breathe. BREATHE! It’s perfect. The cold oxygen through…
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Carpe Diem
It felt right, and I want to be right for the rest of my life. I wanted to be right for the rest of my life. What scared me the most is that you could either be the happiest or saddest thing to happen to me, and that’s all in your hands. I wouldn’t allow…
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Pursuit of Sanity
It all engulfs me! The hate, the anger, the uncertainty.. It’s possessing me entirely. I feel it in every single cell in my body. They burn-up like small candles held by a billion angry people just waiting to torch me down and let the ashes make a scene worth talking about. Misunderstood ashes, blamed by…
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